I noticed a bulge on my lower abdomen in December 2022. I had a negative ultrasound and CT. What was initially believed to possibly be a lipoma (benign tumor of fat) was later biopsied, and by May 2023, I was diagnosed with subcutaneous panniculitis-like T-cell lymphoma (SPTCL). It was a rare form of cutaneous lymphoma. I was young, active, and healthy, so I thought.
In what felt like the prime of my life, I eagerly anticipated my 26th birthday and awaited news from my first PA school interview. It was as surreal as an unscripted movie scene. But life took an unexpected turn when my oncologist described the rarity of my diagnosis as akin to being struck by lightning.
My new reality became one of countless hospital visits, multiple admissions due to idiopathic fevers, and days where fear and sadness threatened to overwhelm me. Seeing others my age achieving milestones I once envisioned for myself was heartbreaking. Yet, even amid pain, I found joy. I found a way to make lemonade from life’s lemons.
After previous failed treatments and six successful rounds of chemo, I’m still here, and I’m thankful. I look forward to living the rest of my days, testifying to God’s healing power.
I want to raise awareness that cancer has no specific target. None of us are exempt. I want to urge young people to be aware of their bodies. Don’t overlook anything that seems abnormal. My life changed in the blink of an eye. Seemingly, my dreams could have been shattered. My faith and hope sustained me through the darkest days.
I am profoundly grateful for The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society (LLS) and the wealth of resources they provide. Their support has reminded us that we are not fighting this battle alone. I am grateful that none of us are fighting this fight alone.
I realized God chose me to defeat cancer, and I launched my brand to inspire other cancer thrivers to walk in hope and confidence. This journey taught me that purpose can emerge from the deepest struggles.
Holly
subcutaneous panniculitis-like T-cell lymphoma (SPTCL)
